High highs but very low lows

Highs

Tonight when he laughed with me. Always bliss!

When he watched the "fish" mobile that my Dad and Angie got him for Christmas. He loves it!

Changing his nappy tonight when he laughed and chatted and cooed at me as he lay on the changing table.

Holding him close to me. He sometimes puts his arms around my neck, probably quite unintentionally but all the same its lovely.

Trying to teach him to suck his thumb instead of his dummy by sitting looking at him while sucking my thumb. (Well, it was funny anyway.)

Seeing how much he enjoys his Baby Mozart DVD as he sits in his high chair next to us while we eat our dinner.

Lows

When he cries going to bed: every, single, night!

Having to take time off work - 2 days! - because he woke almost hourly and kept us up most of the night for no apparent reason.... 2 nights running.

When he woke at 5.20 this morning and wouldn't go back to sleep without his dummy. Then dropped it after 5 minutes and Hayley had to get up to give it back to him. Then 10 minutes later he dropped it again and I had to get up and give it back to him. This repeated a few more times before he finally went properly back to sleep. Totally exhausting.

Knowing that he will probably do the same again tonight.

Sitting at work today feeling ill from tiredness. We have to get him to sleep through the night and get himslef back to sleep without his dummy if at all possible.

Having too little time with Hayley.